The Sensitive Storm

Beneath the surface, a storm brews.

Category: Faith

Since My Last Post (in pictures)

lol

Things have been looking up. I’ve been looking up, too. For answers.

totes

I spent some time hanging out with Toto. Toto spent some time hanging out on me.

classroom

I was “hired” and “fired” from the school board. Again. There went that dream.

kb

I met Katie! She is a missionary in Spain. Funny. Ron went to Spain a few days after I met Katie. He was gone a few weeks. His family lives there.

map

That was really far. No me gusta.

tree

I drew this. I gave it to my grandma for her birthday. I’m not sure about all the colors but other people seem to like it.

fish

I caught this fish. And no, I’m not pregnant. That’s the wind in my shirt. Geesh.

dinner

A lovely lady named Margaret made us dinner. It was delicious. Also, I discovered this seasoning.

yummy

You need it in your life.

mj

I saw Jenn. I love this lady!

pic

I drew this. It’s not like anything I’ve ever done. This isn’t the finished photo. Lemme look for that…

pic

So odd. Reminded me of Frank Lloyd Wright. Except, not.

feather

I found this feather at the beach. it’s 14″ long.

lantern

That same night ^ would’ve been my dad’s birthday. So, we lit this lantern and watched it disappear.

lamp

I think it was headed North.

yay

I discovered the first tomato on the plant I have grown from a seed. It’s in a bucket. So far it’s the only one.

plants

I took some close ups of a passion flower plant. With my iPhone. Thanks to this: http://www.olloclip.com

flounder

I caught this 20″ flounder! I used my Abu Garcia pole and a live shrimp. It measured 20″! I haven’t fished in a really long time but recently I found myself more attracted to the idea of it. I figure since I’m a pesky pescatarian I may as well not be one of those people that pretend death doesn’t exist, for the sake of food.

dog

I dog sat for Toto. The Toto loves me.

J

I had some quality Facetime with my favorite cousin, Jay.

wine

Marcia bought a bottle of the BEST WINE EVER for Girl’s Night! And I drank a glass. And it was good.

glass

Katie gave me that cool coaster. It’s from Morocco.

girls night

“The Girls”. (fun night!!)

night

This was another great night. Had dinner with my BFF who came to see me. She’s moving to California mid-October. 😦

steph

We ate at the raw food restaurant in St. Augustine.

soup

I made this stew with garbanzo beans, tomatoes and kale. (and other things but mostly those 3 things)

tree

I started drawing this.

beach

And I saw the sunset at this beach. Beautiful. Big reason I love this state.

Oh! I updated my iPhone to iOS 7. Does anyone have an iPhone? How do you feel about the upgrade? I like it. I love that the lock screen changes color with whatever wallpaper image I use. I also like that I can get rid of a text with a finger swipe. Before the update my alerts would come up toward the top of the screen and hang out for longer than I wanted it to. Do know, however, if you have an older Mac you will have to upgrade to OS X Snow Leopard. I had to buy that bad boy for $20.00 but the shipping was free and it arrived in just a few days.

I think that’s all I’ve got for now. There are other blogs in the work so stay tuned.

~ C

Ohi(no)

I was supposed to move to Ohio, but now I’m not.

After seeking work for 6 months and finding nothing, I decided to look in other states. I wasn’t actually seeking work in Ohio but I ended up finding something on Craig’s List (in Ohio) that looked pretty awesome. I’d be living in an “intentional community” in Ohio with a few other people. I’d be volunteering my time in the surrounding neighborhood. The volunteer work was at a food kitchen/farmers market. I’d also be working in the garden and doing community outreach related to food and wellness as this was the main goal of the organization. The house was in a nice middle class neighborhood near Cincinnati. A five bedroom, two story home. I wouldn’t have to pay for rent or food and I’d get a stipend that covered my bills and left me with some extra. The commitment was 10 months.

No. It isn’t a cult.

As a matter of fact, this is an Episcopalian non-profit “praxis” community. You don’t have to be of the same faith to be a part of the program. What you DO have to be is seeking to discover your meaning and purpose in life. You DO have to be 25-35 (I’m a little older but they liked me and said it was okay). You DO have to have a passion for and commitment to helping others within your community and you DO have to be seeking something.

Why I thought Ohio would be good for me:

1. I would be able to pay my monthly bills

2. I’d be in a community of people who had the same outlook/beliefs as me

3. Meaningful work that would probably lead to full time employment

4. I liked the spiritual aspect of the community and I looked forward to learning more about my walk with God and what that even means. Having time and space to sort out my thoughts was very appealing.

5. It would be an adventure that I could document and always remember. Maybe it would’ve changed my life…

I was 85% sure I was going until I received an email from a local principal asking if I wanted to teach English.

Wait.

I was supposed to go to Ohio. I didn’t respond to the email because I was processing. (you know us introverts can take forever processing one single thought) (my INFPness doesn’t help either) I should also mention that in June I was interviewed at the same school and was hired. I signed an “intent to hire” contingent on a background check and other teachery things. I was at home visiting my dog and my mother when I received this email from the school board:

nice

Well then. That’s lovely. So much for hope. The next day is when I found out my father died.

While I was busy ignoring his email, the principal called me (I found out the other one transfered to a different school). I answered and he asked if I was still open to taking a position there. He assured me what happened before would not happen again. I was worried. I didn’t trust them after what had already happened but he was nice and it felt right.

So, I went down that day to speak with him. It sounded good. Better than the first position I was offered which was teaching English AND Reading. This time I’d only be teaching freshman English. I thought about it for an hour or so and I called him back and accepted the position.

The very next day I was standing in my classroom by 7:15 a.m. wondering what to do next. I was there for about 10 hours that day. On my way home I stopped at Ross so I could buy an inexpensive pair of flats when I received this email:

hooray

So, that’s fun. Now I’m a little freaked out and I don’t know if I even want to try to work for them. There’s more to it than just my taking the GK (General Knowledge). I’ve already taken the CLAST test which could substitute for the GK but of COURSE there happens to be NO record of it at the Dept. of Education (although I had to take and pass the CLAST before graduating with my two year degree but never mind that).

The fun part of all this is…I’ve taught before. For two years. Where was all this chaos then?

*sigh*

So, here I am in Jacksonville and now I have a new list of reasons why I’m glad I am staying in Jacksonville:

1. I have good friends here

2. I’m in the midst of the beginnings of a new relationship and I’d like to see where it goes

3. I’ve become much closer to a wonderful couple I’m going to call my spiritual parents. I’ll have to write an entirely separate blog to explain how they have helped me transform my life. (that’s been an ongoing process and I’ll explain more later)

4. My dog is in Florida. (I miss her. *sigh*)

5. It doesn’t snow here

This story ends well because I’ve finally discovered that faith exists and I too, can have some.

reconnecting

To be continued…